I wanted to share what God has done in my life over the past year or two with everybody in Chi Alpha. Much thanks to the people who took time to spend with me and keep me on track: Crystal, Pete, and my Core Group. A special thanks to you guys. Take a look and see how God has been faithful and changed me recently.
Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all of these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33.
Many of you know this verse because of its promise. Well, so did I for quite some time. About two years ago I wanted to put this verse to the test. I knew that God never broke a promise and here is a promise to me. I was thoroughly confused about my life, where it was going, who was going to be in, what I wanted in life and were my goals were. I had many things I worried about desires I wanted fulfilled. So, I decided I would attempt to do my part and see if God would pull through.
The past two years my life has changed dramatically. Almost none of you knew me then. I want to give you a quick summary of what God has done in my life and in large part due to Chi Alpha. Two areas of my life God let me get rid of cold turkey show God’s faithfulness immediately. Cussing and Stealing. I used to be able to look at almost anything and if I decided I wanted it, I would just take it. And cussing – everything 4th word out of my mouth was a four letter word. I’m not exaggerating either. I used to make people that talked to me cuss just because I did it so much. Both of these things I decided I wasn’t going to do anymore, and by God’s grace stopped completely two years ago.
The other two areas of my life God and given me supernatural strength with are sexual sins and drinking. These two areas of my life I told God I wasn’t going to give up. These parts of my life were fun, something I thought I needed to have in my life to have friends and girls.
I used to look forward to the weekend because I knew I would go out to frat parties or bars or wherever to get drunk. Now I look back and wonder what I was thinking. Recently, I have found that I no longer have this desire. I can have alcohol sitting all around me and have no desire to drink – this never was the case before. So God changed my desires – so in a sense he did give me the desires of my heart. All that needed to be done was to change my desire away from alcohol.
Finally, sexual sins. This was part of my life I said I wasn’t going to change. It had been a part of my girlfriend relationships for a long time. I couldn’t just change this. But I saw how God was being faithful and I knew this was a part of my life he would want as well. I told God that I would give it a try, but if I wasn’t satisfied I would go back to the way I was. It was incredibly hard at first to try to stop something I was so used to, especially since that person was still in my life everyday. But after some really tough times God worked everything out. A few months ago, there was an incredibly attractive girl in my house that said she would do whatever I asked. I had my frat brothers telling me to go for it, and that they wouldn’t turn down such an opportunity. But the decision wasn’t that hard for me to tell her that I would give her a ride home. That is when I knew God had changed me more than I ever thought possible.
For those of you struggling with this. Stop now, it’s going to hurt, going to be tough. But do it, God is faithful and will reward you for your obedience. I know I have left a part of who I am with some girls, and I know I will never get that back. Don’t sell yourself short, your future relationships will be so much easier and more fulfilling. Don’t leave nothing to be desired by your future spouse because you gave everything private about you away before marriage. Those of you who have already messed up, start today and remain pure.
God will change your desires, what an amazing way to fulfill them. I pray that you don’t make the same mistakes I have in my life. Open all areas to your life to Jesus and let him take control. It’s illogical, and scary to let areas of your life go out of your control, but in the end you will realize it’s the only way to be happy and content.